(1)The game of baseball has always been linked in my mind with mystic texture
of childhood, with the sounds and smells of summer nights and with the memories
of my father.
(2)My love for baseball was born on the first day my father took me to Ebbets
Field in Brooklyn. Riding in the trolley car, he seemed as excited as I was,
and he never stopped talking; now describing for me the street in Brooklyn where
he had grown up, now recapturing for me his favorite memories from the Dodgers
of his youth—the Dodgers of Casey Stinger, Zach Wheat, and Jimmy Johnston.
(3)In the evenings, when my dad came home from work, we would sit together
on our porch and relive the events of that afternoon’s game which I had
so carefully preserved in the large, red scorebook I’d been given for
my seventh birthday. I can still remember how proud I was to have mastered all
those strange and wonderful symbols that permitted me to recapture, in miniature
form, the every movement of Jackie Robinson and Pee Wee Reese, Duke Snider,
and Gil Hodges. But the real power of that scorebook lay in the responsibility
it entailed. For all through my childhood, my father kept from me the knowledge
that the daily papers printed daily box scores, allowing me to believe that
without my personal renderings of all those games he missed while he was at
work, he would be unable to follow our team in the only proper way a team should
be followed, day by day, inning by inning. In other words, without me, his love
for baseball would be forever incomplete.
(4)To be sure, there were risks involved in making a commitment as boundless
as mine. For me, as for all too many Brooklyn fans, the presiding memory of
“the boys of summer” was the memory of the final playoff game in
1951 against the Giants. Going into the ninth, the Dodgers held a 4-1 lead.
Then came two singles and a double, placing the winning run at the plate with
Bobby Thomson at bat. As Dressen replaced Erskine with Branca, my older sister,
with maddening foresight, predicted the forever famous Thomson homers—a
prediction that left me so angry with her, imagining that with her words she
had somehow brought it about, that I would not speak to her for days.
(5)So the season of my childhood passed until that miserable summer when the
Dodgers were taken away to Los Angeles by the unforgivable O’Malley, leaving
all our rash hopes and dreams of glory behind. And then came a summer of still
deeper sadness when my father died. Suddenly my feelings for baseball seemed
an aspect of my departing youth, along with my childhood freckles and my favorite
childhood haunts, to be left behind when I went away to college and never came
(6)Then one September day, having settled into teaching at Harvard, I agreed,
half reluctantly, to go to Fenway Park. There it was again: the cozy ballfield
scaled to human dimensions so that every word of encouragement and every scornful
yell could be heard on the field; the fervent crowd that could, with equal passion,
curse a player for today’s failures after cheering his heroics that day
before; the team that always seemed to break your heart in the last week of
the season. It took only a matter of minutes before I found myself directing
all my old intensities toward my new team—the Boston Red Sox.
(7)I am often teased by my women friends about my obsession, but just as often,
in the most unexpected places—academic conferences, in literary discussions,
at the most elegant dinner parties—I find other women just as crazily
committed to baseball as I am, and the discovery creates an instant bond between
us. All at once, we are deep in conversation, mingling together the past and
the present, as if the history of the Red Sox had been our history too.
(8)There we stand, one moment recollecting the unparalleled performance of
Yaz in ’67, the next sharing ideas on how the present lineup should be
changed; one moment recapturing the splendid career of “the Splendid Splinter,”
the next complaining about the manager’s decision to pull the pitcher
the night before. And then, invariably, comes the most vivid memory of all,
the frozen image of Carlton Fisk as he rounded first in the sixth game of the
’75 World Series, an image as intense in its evocation of triumph as the
image of Ralph Branca weeping in the dugout is in its portrayal of heartache.
(9)There is another, more personal memory associated with Carlton Fisk, for
he was, after all the years I had followed baseball, the first player I actually
met in person. Apparently, he had read the biography I had written on Lyndon
Johnson and wanted to meet me. Yet when the meeting took place, I found myself
reduced to the shyness of childhood. There I was, a professor at Harvard, accustomed
to speaking with presidents of the United States, and yet, standing beside this
young man in a baseball uniform, I was speechless.
(10)Finally, Fisk said that it must have been an awesome experience to work
with a man of such immense power as President Johnson—and with that, I
was at last able to stammer out, with a laugh, “Not as awesome as the
thought that I am really standing here talking with you.”
Perhaps I have circled back to my childhood, but if this is so, I am certain that my journey through time is connected in some fundamental way to the fact that I am now a parent myself, anxious to share with my three sons the same ritual I once shared with my father.
(11)For in this linkage between the generations rests the magic of baseball,
a game that has defied the ravages of modern life, a game that is still played
today by the same basic rules and at the same pace as it was played one hundred
years ago. There is something deeply satisfying in the knowledge of this continuity.
(12)And there is something else as well which I have experiences sitting in
Fenway Park with my small boys on a warm summer’s day. If I close my eyes
against the sun, all at once I am back at Ebbets Field, a young girl once more
in the presence of my father, watching the players of my youth on the grassy
field below. There is magic in this moment, for when I open my eyes and see
my sons in the place where my father once sat, I feel an invisible bond between
our three generations, an anchor of loyalty linking sons to the grandfather
whose face they never saw but whose person they have already come to know through
this most timeless of all sports, the game of baseball.